Today turned out rather nice. Thought it was gonna be another wasted day, but ended up having a good time. So I woke up & spent some time w/ the girls, jeff slept in, so I took the oppurtunity to get some things around the hosue done. Later we all headed out to the River, & had a nice long walk. At one point, I sat on the side, just gazing out at the water. Sitting there, i felt angry looking at trash here & there, I think next weekend we may go back out & take a few trash bags with us & do some clean up. Give a little something back to make it a nicer place.

Has been a nice rainy day & I love it. I needed an 'off' day. I have been running ragged the last few Weeks & its nice to catch a break. Just me & my girls today, Jeff worked an extra day. PLayed a bit online, napped, picked up house some, but mostly was just lazy &watched tv. Nice. I needed it.

I just love it when people try to reflect their own shortcomings back on someone else. I also love it when people who have no grip on reality try to play like they are smart. Apparently you read my blog, I could care less. You were a loser when you invaded our group & you are still one because you feel the need to continue to bring it all up. It's pretty bad when IM inundated w/ messages here how you keep posting about us. I can count at least 22 messages in my inbox relating to the way you keep bringiing it up on your blog. Sad that you just cant let go. It is amazing, since you left, the groups have taken on such a lighter tone. No hateful emails, no name calling, noone calling others fag, or talking about raping children. No negativity AT ALL. Amazing huh?

Funny how one persons presence can bring out the wrst in people. I hope you're  proud for having that affect on others. 

Also funny how you dont show your true colors to people here. Actually, I hope you really arent like that in real life. Id hate to feel the negative energy tht would ooze from you iof you are.I hope that in your real life, you are all the things you claim to be. See? thats the difference, even after all the bullshit you threw at me, I can still stand up & say I hope things work out for you.

Oh & I hate to be the one to break it to you. Every single person your deluded little mind thinks is fake, they are real. Jonn is real. Mike is real. Jenny is real. Anjelica is real. No i dont live in a trailer & weigh 300 lbs. No I dont sponge off my mom. No my fiancee doesnt have sex with men & does not & never did try to rape children. Yes we do live in a nice 4 bedroom house , have 4 vehicles & a huge computer setup & run servers in the back. Sorry its beyond you to fathom anyone can have that.

We also have real friends, I hope youre making some real ones yourself so you dont feel the need to put others down to make yourself feel better.

Yes I posted some of my blogs to the grops here., just as I am posting this one.Sorrry, I can if I choose to. Yes I joined several of the groups, actually, I was on most of them all along. So dont bother thinking so highly of yourself that I came looking for you. Ive been on here since it popped up on the net. Yes, Mike B. made up the site about you. Anyne can read that as well. The only things posted there are the posts YOU made, showing what a mean spirited person you are. Did we spar back?You bet.

But if you recall, I went 3 weeks without replying to you at all & still in every single post you made, you found reason to call me a fat whore, fat slut, accused my fiancee of having sex w. others, accused him of raping my stepson, whatever you could find to throw out there.

Anything that hapened, your so called hacked posts, you felt the need to accuse me of doing those. Yet you cant match up ANY of the Ip addresses to mine. Not a one. Know why?

I DID NOT DO IT. simple as that.

You have a hell of a following, & not a good one. Every group you have went to , every forum, you end up getting banned or everyone hating you. Such charisma!

As for the drama we 'created' I think the majority of the blame can fall on someone elses shoulders, yours. All anyone needs to do is read the groups archives. They are public for all to see. From your very first post you were hateful & negative & by the 3rd or 4th post you started the name calling. Many tried to make peace with you, to no avail. Trolls are like that. That is what you are. You are a troll.

So in closing, this will be my last words about you, you are not my problem.

Have a good life . I hope you actually find some kind of peace. Theres something really wrong with someone who gets sadistic pleasure out of tearing other people apart when they have no clue about who they truly are.

the last 2 nights I have been doing a long term mirroe reflective spell. It works by repelling negativity & reflection it back on the person who projects it. So far quite effective. I am very happy with the results so far. Within just a few moments of its beginning, I could feel a change. The dark negative feelings that had surrounded any online activity in the past few months has completely disappeared. Hmm....coincidence? LOL

Anyway, tomorrow I start marking out the large medicine wheel im creating in my back yard area. Also going to dedicate areas to each of the elements. I thought about a small firepit, a water fountain/pond, small garden area, & some large windchimes. These placed at each appropriate corner & in the center, a small cleared out space for ritual.

I had my altar all set up outdoors, I moved it under the tent for some protection as there were a few not so water friendly items on it. The rain & wind knocked the tent down but it landed in such a way that protected everything on my altar, even the delicate glass globe over my candle, the globe given to me by my grandmother before she passed away, also my bowl of crystals & a bowl of herbs & incense, completely untouched & dry.

:-)